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**THINK ABOUT THIS!**
1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you. 
2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way.  3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be just like you. 
4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if the don't like you. 
5. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. 
6. You mean the world  to someone.
7. Without you, someone may not be living. 
8. Someone that you don't know exists, loves you.
9. When you make a mistake, something good comes from it. 
10. You are special and unique in your own way.
Someone loves you like that so don't ever change!!!
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..she types in:
Red- She is saying I love you.
Orange- She is happy. 
Yellow- She is sad. 
Green- She is feelin' crazy.
Aqua- She is feelin' moody.
Blue- She is feelin' horny.
Purple- She is feelin' girly. 
Pink- She is feelin' sexy. 
...she says:
I don't like you! (but still flirts with you)- She means "I love you!"
I'll call ya tommorow- She means "I am never calling you again!!" 
Like THE shirt- She means "It would look better on my boyfriend." 
Don't leave me- She means "I want you!" 
I like your haircut- She means "You are totally hot!" 
I like your trousers- She means "I'd rather be in them with you." 
I'm fine- She is not fine!!!
I'm great/kool- She is in a good mood!
I love you- She means it! And nobody could love you more.
I miss(ed) you- Nobody on this earth could (have) miss(ed) you more than her.
... she touches you on the:
Leg- She wants you bad! 
Lower arm- She wants you to hold her hand.
Upper arm- She wants you to hug her! 
Face- She wants to make-out 
Neck- She wants to kiss you.
Ear- She is feeling horny.
Chest- She wants you bad.
If she lays her head on your chest she is wishing you'll stay forever.
...she is:
Quiet- A million things are running through her mind.
Not arguing- she is thinking deeply.
Looking staringly at you- she is wondering how long you will be around.
Calling you everyday- she wants your attention.
Being demanding- she wants to be loved and pampered by you.
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I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last
year, when we
went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell
in love with
him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and
confessed my
love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we
loved each
other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his
side, there
were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I
was just
another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt
disappointment
grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I
love you’
before.
To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it
continued
till 100 days…200days…
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just
hand me a
doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and
handed me
the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my
room,
one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party
with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his
call.
But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the
sky was
dark… he still didn’t call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone
anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly
called me
and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out
of the
house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am
giving it
to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my
birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had
happen.
Then I shouted…
“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to
him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so
easily, if you
are desperate to hear it, then find someone
else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb…and I collapsed to the ground.
He
didn’t want to say it easily…
How could he….
I felt that…
Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying,
just
crying.
He didn’t call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every
morning
outside my house.
That’s how those dolls piled up in my room…
everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to
school.
But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw
him on
a street…with another girl…
He had a smile on his face, one that he never
showed
me…as he touched the doll…
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls
in my
room, and tears fell…
Why did he gave these to me…
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other
girls…
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my
house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus
stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget
him,
that… it’s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really
came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing
had happen
and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on
the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it
anymore!! I don’t
want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me.
But unlike
other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the
doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?!
Just
throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then…
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards
him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and
picked up the
doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!!
“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his
eyes to
say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with
guiltiness
and the sadness of losing him…
And after spending two months like a crazy
person…
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the
day we
started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and
started to
count the days… when we were in love…
“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and
eighty
five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my
arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be!
I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on
the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop.
I…love you…
Why didn’t I realize that….
That his heart was always by my side, protecting
me.
Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much…
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed
it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the
road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so
much…
“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving
each
other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I
couldn’t
say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I
love you…
everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I
asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his
last
minute…
For that… and for that reason… to me… it became
courage… to live a beautiful life….
It's better to lose your pride with someone you
love rather than lose
someone that you love with your useless pride !
 If kisses were raindrops,
I'd send you showers.
If hugs were minutes, I'd send you hours.
If smiles were an ocean,
I'd send you the sea.
And if love was a person,
I'd send u me
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